After losing my son Wyatt in January of 2011 I completely gave up. I did what I wanted to do when I wanted to do it. I ate/drank to my hearts content. I justified my behavior by saying I deserved it. I deserved to let go. I deserved to find some happiness somewhere. I love my food and i love my drink but I was chasing a happiness that I could not find in food or drinking. It kept me satisfied for a minute but all I did was make myself VERY unhealthy and even more so unhappy. I hated that person looking back at me in the mirror.
In November 2013 I joined Weight Watchers. I had to change something! I also tried to quit smoking which I quickly went back to. I dropped the first 20 lbs so easily! I wasn't exercising just changed my eating habits. I lost another 18 pounds over the next couple of months. I had lost 38 lbs by July 2014. Then I plateaued. I was going to meetings and halfway working the program. I was tracking my food. But not consistently. I was guessing points on foods which I'm sure was way off. Then came the good old holidays. Usually the time I would stop going to meetings and say I would go back but wouldn't. I did go back this time. The support from the meetings is something I have to have in my life! I crave my Thursday mornings with my amazing support group!!!! From August 2014-January 2015 I slowly put on 12 lbs!!!!! I was so disappointed in myself. But thankfully to my amazing leader Ali she wasn't gonna let me give up! Over the last 2 months I've lost 10 lbs and have started for the first time incorperating excersize 4-5 times a week. And I quit smoking again! 18 days!!!!
Even though I have not consistently lost weight every week I am so proud of who I am today. Today I look in the mirror and see a woman who has known the deepest darkest places but crawled out of that place. I see a person who still trying to find her way. I see a woman who is learning healthy living and succeeding. I see a woman who did not give up and will not give up! I'm not going back to the person who can't. Because I can. I see a woman who is healthy and refinding her spirit. Refinding her path to God. Finding her happiness!
I cannot wait to read this post a year from now. I know I will succeed.
Who do you see when you look in the mirror? If you don't like what you see.... How can you change that? Life is too short to not love our beautiful selves. This is your one life. Make it count.








